You ever get that feeling that any time you walk into a room, all eyes are on you? You take a step back and just think to yourself, “I might actually look alright today” You picture men noticing that your hair is freshly curled and your face is perfectly contoured. Your lips are glossed to perfection. You wear tight jeans that show that hourglass figure with that floral print jacket. You think to yourself, “These men are going to love me”. You are indecisive about wearing heels or flats for the day, so you just wear your boots. You smile and say, “Yeah today is definitely going to be the day where my life changes...” and then reality hits.
You’re alone. You crave attention, but never want to look desperate. It’s almost as if you love being chased but once you’re caught you can’t handle the emotion. Why is this? No you don’t have daddy issues like many men claimed but seriously what is it about commitment that makes you afraid.....? It’s almost seems as if you’re afraid of being tied down..but you enjoy the high of being chased by men who you know won’t make you better. The bad boy is what you call him. He’s strong. He’s funny. He’s wild but he’s not the one you truly want. Date after date and still you find yourself ALONE. And one day, he appears. This strong man with passion. This grown man with a heart bigger than the sun. This marvelous being who just so happens to be the reason you take so long getting ready...because you know there’s a compliment awaiting you... “Your skin glows like the sun” or “your smell is refreshing” are what you’re in love with hearing. To the world, he’s your neighbor but to you, he’s your admirer. He’s is really handsome yet shy and has a smile that makes angels sing. His appreciation for art is what made you attracted to him and I can say it was because of Leo you gained this “confidence”. One night you come home and see a note on your door with a rose attached and it reads: “I think about you more than you know, a lot actually...just don't want to seem clingy. I want you, but can't reach you..... in every sense. Don't want to rush, but can't help to run and hide. Frustrated.... feel so.... trapped, bound, but never felt so free..I'm an old sensitive soul. Love to love, love to be loved. It's where I function best in my heart I still believe.” You smile and when you opened your door..the man of your dreams was right behind you. You think to yourself, “is this real”? But then again you’ve craved for this attention and now it’s finally yours. Just don’t f#!k it up. x/o Ming 💕
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Trinity
4/1/2020 01:38:04 pm
This applied to me sooo much i needed to read this im happy i did.
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